I signed the back of the check with one hand: “Mark Rust,” and on the next line added,
“Payable to Nicholas Stix.”
Then, with the other hand, I signed,
Had I used the same hand to sign both names, it would have immediately become evident that “Mark Rust” and “Nicholas Stix” were the same man. (Not that I was doing anything illegal!)
I went through that ritual at least a dozen times between 1993 and 1999. I wish I could say I did it more, but I was only so useful to the local dailies and national magazines—the New York Post
, Daily News
and The Weekly Standard
—for which I was using pseudonyms. Some other places for whom I wrote pseudonymously didn’t pay, and sometimes they didn’t even print what they’d chased after me to write!
I’d come to New York City from West Germany in 1985, planning to become a millionaire philosopher. That hadn’t quite panned out.
In 1990, while employed as a full-time social worker, I also produced the first of three issues of A Different Drummer
, a political literary magazine I conceived of during grad school, and used its title as a stepping stone into New York City journalism.New York Newsday
was by far the most radical leftwing paper in town, but it was also the only one that actively solicited and published submissions from local nobodies for its “Urban I” op-ed feature. To borrow from Chicago pol Abner Mikva
, I was the ultimate “nobody nobody sent.”
When in March 1990, NYN
published my essay about working as a foster-care caseworker with racist, violent, black parents, my boss (of a new job—not as a foster caretaker) immediately canned me and, I found out later, resolved to blacklist me.
I kept sending in submissions, all “on spec,” i.e., with no obligation on the paper’s part, and in early 1991, NYN
published another, a quintessentially Jewish New York piece about an encounter with an obnoxious, black panhandler, “Beggars Can be Schmoozers.”
In the piece, I echo my old grad school logic professor, Michael Levin, who argued
that since 25% of black men ages 20-29 were convicted felons then under the supervision of the criminal justice system (in jail, prison, or on probation or parole), one was justified in crossing the street to avoid them.
In response, NYN
published a sophomoric essay by a black, CUNY Baruch College sophomore who suffered from toxically high self-esteem. He smugly lectured Levin that the black man he avoided on the street was a potential friend.NYN
stifled my reply and all my best pitches were suddenly DOA. Op-ed editor Ken Emerson would respond, “No light’s going off, Nick.”
I managed to get in one more piece with NYN
, but only by pulling a string. My big sister was friends with another NYN
op-ed editor, Annette Fuentes, and through her, it published my essay on the “death sentence” the media had levied on my Brooklyn community, Bensonhurst, ostensibly due to the 1989 murder of black teenager Yusuf Hawkins, but actually because of the MSM’s murderous hatred of working-class whites.NYN
promoted the essay on its table of contents inside the cover, but welshed on paying me my $150 fee.
They had pirated New York’s most popular columnist, Jimmy Breslin, away from the Daily News
in 1988, by giving him $400,000 per year ($835,690 today), and were in the process of losing $100 million from 1985-1995 ($189 million in 2015 dollars). But they were making a point of cheating a freelancer out of $150.
Never underestimate the role of pettiness in human affairs.
After months of chasing after my fee, I got my $150 only by suing the paper in Small Claims Court. NYN
’s attractive, tall, blond, gentile lawyer denied that I’d been blacklisted, and invited me to submit again.
Which I did. But not as Nicholas Stix.
I got an old friend from grad school to let me use him as a front—you know, the way those poor, genocidal, Communist millionaires like Dalton Trumbo
had done during the 1950s?
I used my buddy’s address and telephone number. And who was I? Nicholas Stix had a working-class, staccato, Jewish New York, intellectual voice that was so distinctive that a lawyer I’d never met recognized me over the phone from having heard me on a radio call-in show. By contrast, “Mark Rust” was an upper-middle-class homosexual with a diffident (no lisp), slow, low voice. (I was an old amateur stage actor.)
My (“Rust’s”) essay, “We Don’t Need Another Hero,” about a racial turf battle between black Rev. Calvin O. Butts in Harlem and rappers, was typical of my work in those days.
Ken Emerson told “Rust” over the telephone, “Wonderful, wonderful essay!”
And so, I became a man of multiple identities.
- In the late 1990s, while an adjunct lecturer at my alma mater, the City University of New York system, I wrote a series of whistle-blowing essays on CUNY for the New York Post and Daily News as “Robert Berman,” a name I’d come up with when I’d gotten caught shoplifting in Waldbaum’s when I was 13, so the manager wouldn’t reach my mom. I came to work to find a stack of photocopied essays attacking me.
- At The Weekly Standard, William Kristol published an essay of mine on the destruction of standards at CUNY’s City College, and commissioned an exposé on remedial college ed. The manuscript didn’t even mention IQ, but the cowardly Kristol got cold feet, and backed out of publishing it. After I reminded his deputy that the work was not on spec, she remembered to cut me a “kill fee” check.
- Anne Neal at ACTA, the American Council of Trustees and Alumni, asked “Berman,” to write a report on reforming CUNY. She got a 10,000-word report that she neither published, nor so much as acknowledged.
- Several years ago, I sent a pseudonymous letter to my local community paper about violent black kids attending my son’s predominantly white elementary school. The editor immediately wrote back, asserting that the letter was “too racist” and had to be re-written (i.e., ruined), saying “I think I know who you are”—I’m sure he did!—and demanding that I appear in his office with photo ID, before he’d even consider running my letter.
Journalism is so bad in America because it’s dominated by the anti-white Left, while the alleged Right is made up of hollow men. On top of that, as a West German said to me of mainstream journalism over 30 years ago, “Das ist ja alles Beziehungen.” (“It’s all connections.”)Thank God, for VDARE.com!NYN
went out of business 20 years ago, the Daily News
veered radically to the left in the 2000s, and the once fearless Post
has been trimming its sails in recent years. The “Overton Window” is so narrow that, front or no front, I can’t write in New York City anymore.
Thankfully for me and my babies, who like to eat, there’s VDARE.com
, which I discovered for myself in 2000, and have read ever since.VDARE.com
Editor-Publisher Peter Brimelow has been publishing my work for over 11 years. I don’t have to call up Peter using a fake voice or fake name, or triangulate so much in my writing that my point is completely lost.
The only problem is that he wants me to write ever-shorter manuscripts. (You’ll talk to him, right? Something like, “You have to publish longer articles by Nicholas Stix!”)Please support VDARE.com
as generously as possible. I thank you—and your posterity will, too.